Life With Jules, and other stuff

I wish I could tell you how I really feel. The flirting is fun, but I am beginning to develop feelings that go beyond friendship. Maybe you're not the one. Maybe you are. Only God knows for sure. I just want to say the words, but find those words sticking - not coming out. Why are you so handsome, so kind, so funny and fun? Why did you come into my life? Am I reading too much into the flirtatiousness? Am I just that lonely and longing for companionship, fulfilling companionship? I don't know. I do know there is a fine line. I do know that the sound of your voice, the emails and texts, they all bring a smile to my face. At a time when I feel so much sadness. I know the desires of my heart. God knows the desires of my heart. Do the two really meet? Or is it just my mind and the games of the dark one?

Lately, I have been keeping myself occupied with Bible study; in addition to my other daily things. I find the more I get into the Bible, the more I desire a quiet room all to myself. One with a couple of lamps. A ceiling fan. Air-conditioned, of course. Ideally it would be a sun room. I could have plants and maybe a small bookshelf. Oh, there would have to be a big comfy chair and a small, 2-person table. Let's not forget the nice view so I can meditate on what I've read while watching birds and squirrels. I can see myself sitting at the table with my Bible open and a nice cup of tea. I really need a sense of peace and calm tranquility.