Life With Jules, and other stuff

That's what I want to yell to God! It's just not fair. Ok, this past week I spent in Kissimmee / Lake Buena Vista / Orlando for our annual training. Each spring the State sends us to a location within the state to give us refresher training on our jobs / duties. It was a pleasant week and I had a great time with colleagues from the central Florida area. Our hotel was in Lake Buena Vista; Downtown Disney area to be exact. My first impression of the room was "I could live here". It was great! Here are some pics I took during the week: Now, why do I say "It's not fair" at the beginning of this post. Because I am really working on myself and my relationship with God. I am trying to live right. But I keep finding myself wanting someone I simply will never have a chance with. One of my very best friends, someone I have known for more than 20 years. I love this man dearly and he knows it. God knows how I feel. God knows how he feels. The only thing I ca...

Every time we speak you seem to have something that you just want to say The words seem to be           on your lips but you just can't           get them out Speak those words that are in your heart; that you want to say The words that are           on your lips Those are the same words that are on mine  

If I could have one wish granted one wish out of one thousand, It would be to share a sunrise with you   And if this wish were granted this one wish with you, I would want to be in your arms as the sun rises   If while in your arms we are watching the sunrise you dare to give me a kiss, I'll let you   You see, my one wish is to be in your arms on a beach watching the sunrise with you ~ Julie Hayes, 2013

…to an interesting start. It’s been weird adjusting to life without my dad. I miss him every day. Last week was especially difficult for me. I went on a short vacation to visit a dear friend, someone whom I have loved for many years, and watching this man interact with his child made me miss my dad more. Don’t get me wrong, it’s good to miss daddy from time to time and last week was especially bittersweet. I really enjoyed my time there, even though at times I’m sure he didn’t think so, lol. It was a bit awkward as we hadn’t seen one another in a long time. But, I digress… While there, I came to some realisations about myself. One of the biggest is one that will remain between me, him and God. The other big one was that I am craving to learn more from God. I have been trying to spend more time in my Bible (I have been informed that I need to get the King James Version and put away my NIV; which I will). I actually do enjoy the olde English better anyway, just a bit rusty at reading...

My every waking thought is of you; I simply cannot shake. I long to feel you your breath on my skin light caresses from your hands lips pressed firm against mine.   My every waking thought is of you. I love the way you flirt the twinkle in your eyes the smile across your face you make me feel like a girl; I simply cannot shake.   My every waking thought is of you. I wonder if we can or if we should play with temptation; I simply cannot shake you from my mind.

So I decided to write a poem for today:   To Find Someone   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that will love you That will hold you when you’re sad To wraps his arms around you And just lay there all night long.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that you can lean on That shows he cares In the simplest of ways. To just sit there next to you And just listen as you cry.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that is meant for you That you can connect with Both intimately and intellectually And just be.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find my someone…   9 June 2011 ****************************************** That about sums it up. I am more ready than ever to take that next step in my life. I have fears of being alone and I am certain these fears are amplified because of my dad’s i...

Senses It is so easy to give in I’ve wanted to give in For so long, even though I know what the Consequences would be Temptation is there And extremely hard to resist The scent smells so sweet The touch, so divine If only I could taste Of the fruit Then the senses Would be complete July 26, 1993