Life With Jules, and other stuff

So I decided to write a poem for today:   To Find Someone   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that will love you That will hold you when you’re sad To wraps his arms around you And just lay there all night long.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that you can lean on That shows he cares In the simplest of ways. To just sit there next to you And just listen as you cry.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find someone Someone that is meant for you That you can connect with Both intimately and intellectually And just be.   The most difficult thing In this world Is to find my someone…   9 June 2011 ****************************************** That about sums it up. I am more ready than ever to take that next step in my life. I have fears of being alone and I am certain these fears are amplified because of my dad’s i...

The past couple of weeks have been emotionally difficult for me. A lot of old, deeply buried emotions have bubbled over the surface and for the first time in about 10 years I am feeling again. I have a couple of really good friends to thank for this as I really need to feel this junk that I bottled up. The 1990s was a decade that could only be described as hell for me. This is where a lot of these emotions stem from. The things that happened to me during that decade. If I were into drugs or alcohol, I might have made it through differently. Alas, I did not resort to either vice. Instead, I buried my feelings and began the long process of isolation in 1998. Beginning with the early part of the decade, I graduated high school in 1990. About a year later, I found myself moving to southern California and getting married to someone I barely knew. We only corresponded through letters and telephone conversations, but we connected. I was trying to runaway from the place I was in at the time....