Life With Jules, and other stuff

I wish I could tell you how I really feel. The flirting is fun, but I am beginning to develop feelings that go beyond friendship. Maybe you're not the one. Maybe you are. Only God knows for sure. I just want to say the words, but find those words sticking - not coming out. Why are you so handsome, so kind, so funny and fun? Why did you come into my life? Am I reading too much into the flirtatiousness? Am I just that lonely and longing for companionship, fulfilling companionship? I don't know. I do know there is a fine line. I do know that the sound of your voice, the emails and texts, they all bring a smile to my face. At a time when I feel so much sadness. I know the desires of my heart. God knows the desires of my heart. Do the two really meet? Or is it just my mind and the games of the dark one?

As promised, an update. The first picture is where I left off. The second picture is what I completed recently. Mainly part of the left border to the top of the chart so I can complete that top section without getting off count.  I got this chart from Yiota's XStitch. You can view her stuff on Etsy or Facebook. http://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/YiotasXStitch https://www.facebook.com/yiotas.cross.stitch/

Been trying to do some more paintings lately. Here are 4 of my latest. Colorful Hex Shades of Blue Patriotic #2 Sea of Green I have also managed to do a little stitching on "Praying Hands." I'll post a picture soon.

Went on a little walk in nature yesterday. What started out as a visit to the local VA Hospital for an ultrasound on my kidney turned into a jaunt at Lettuce Lake Park in Tampa. Here are some pictures from what I saw. This heron didn't know what to make of the gator

These are from my latest "pour" that is an abstract of Patriotic

Ok, so my roomie/friend loves YouTube and finds the most interesting things at times. Recently, he happened across a painting technique called "Dirty Cup Pour" using acrylic paints. This is a simple technique, although I must admit it almost kicked my bum. Here is a link to the YouTube channel he likes pertaining to this art:  Suave Arts . Following is a photograph of my first attempt with some close-ups of different angles. I think I found a new artsy outlet. But I am not giving up on cross stitch.

But so much on my mind. I get annoyed so easily anymore. Especially when I feel like a bomb is going to drop. I've been untrusting of certain people for a long time now. It's not really their fault. Well, not completely. A few have earned my distrust. Which is truly sad. For them and me. There's a lot about my life I don't divulge easily. More for protection so that kind of hurt can never cross me again. Also because I just don't want to talk about it. When I find myself questioning things, I don't do what I should do: Trust God. Does that make me a hypocrite? I don't know. What I do know is my questions don't seem to get answers until I do turn it over to HIM. And even then I don't always like HIS answer. That makes me human, I suppose. And I don't think I'd want to be anything other than human. Certainly not super-human! I'll leave that to Superman and the like. LOL So where am I going with this post? I don't think far, but we...