Life With Jules, and other stuff

There are times when I just want to run away; far far away.  I can't hide under a rock, or in a lake, or on a boat, or in my home. The world just seems to find me no matter what. There are times when I just want to escape it all. I turn to my God, I turn to my friends, I turn to my family, but never myself. Life just seems to crash all around. ***** I have been wanting to run away from myself for so long it's almost an addiction. Every time I try to do something to improve my life situation, something seems to send me on a detour. At times, even on a collision course. At the age of 41, I never thought I would be this alone. I have made mistakes in my life; little ones and huge. We all make mistakes. Unfortunately, many of the mistakes I have made have caused me to lose myself. I am at a point in my life where I need to figure out who Julie is. I need to figure out what values Julie holds. What's most important to her? What can she let go of and still be happy? What truly ma...

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We finished Bathsheba last week in Bible Study and began Mary this week. I am excited this is coming to a conclusion, but also a little bummed. I am not sure what will be next. I just hope we can keep this little group going for some time. As we have only just begun Mary this morning, I haven't much to tell or reflect on yet. I mean, I have read the stories in the Bible many times and feel comfortable enough to know that Mary was a strong and courageous woman of faith. Everything she had to endure, from the virgin birth to the death of her son on the cross. This can only be symbolic of strength and courage, undying faith and devotion, and most of all GRACE. As I have said before, going through these novellas, reading about each of these women, has given me some perspective of my own life. The happy times and the hardships I have faced. The triumphs and the disappointments. The serenity and even the confusion. I am learning a lot about myself and the kind of woman that I not only ne...

What a week this has been! It started out with my stepping on a nail. No real damage done, just a twinge of pain on Monday. The week wore on and on, or so it seemed. Friday, I went to work and had to go back home to take one of my cats to the vet. Sandy is fine. Just some allergy issues. Me, however, I fell in the carport. At that point I just wanted to rewind the week and start it over without the injuries, lol. Thankfully, I have been able to rest today, somewhat. I planned to do some stitching this week but just haven't felt motivated. Not sure why I am having so many issues this summer. I guess it's just a bunch of everything and nothing that's kept me in grief and depression. I don't want to burden you too much. I hope you all are having stitchy-filled weekends and have an even better week!  

I don't have any stitchy progress to share yet. Didn't feel much like doing anything over the weekend. Too much crap on my mind. Oh well, such is life I guess! Now to the title. You may wonder what my wish is. Well, since I am so friggin' broke right now (aren't we all) I haven't been able to purchase any stitchy magazines. I am so hoping to pick up the Halloween and Christmas special issues this year at the very least. Yeah, had to let the subscription go when it expired. I'll get back on my financial footing soon enough. I just wish I could go magazine shopping. (Think Lucy here...) WAAAAAAAA! Ok, back to normalcy.  Congrats are definitely in order for the newest little Prince and his mum and dad.  I stepped on a stupid nail this morning. Yeah, that really woke me up. And my foot hurts. That'll learn me!! At least it didn't go all the way through and was on the edge of the bottom of my foot. No tetanus shot. Nope! No Way! Not gonna happen!!  ...

My weekdays are pretty much filled with work. I spend a lot of time in front of a computer trying to help veterans find jobs or a school to go to or even information on benefits available. Sometimes the days go rather quickly. Other times, not so much! By 4 pm I am so ready to go home and tend to watch the clock for about an hour. Yesterday, by the time 3pm rolled around it felt like 4 pm. That's how slow the day was for me. When I get home in the evening, I tend to throw on the tele and my laptop. It's my wind-down time. And it is also the time of day when I am in my mind the most. I have a problem with daydreaming, fantasizing, scrutinizing, and irrationalizing my life and sometimes my mere existence. I have my cats. They are 50/50 in how they keep my stress level under control. When they get under my skin the most is when I am having an extremely off day or they want some serious attention and go about it wrong. That's when they get stepped on or I trip over them, lol! I...

Well, it's happened again! We lost another family member. I know it's part of life, but 3 before my dad has even been gone a year is a little much. Anyway, I went to the funeral service this morning for my great-uncle George. He was a very talented and Christ-filled man. I only knew him for a few years, but I grew to love him. I know he was my dad's favorite, so it's comforting to know they are together again at some fishing hole having a good time. On the stitchy front, I have been making some progress on "Praying Hands" but haven't taken any new pics yet. Last weekend I got the carpet removed from my house, which allowed me to make some minor layout changes. Let's just say the lighting in my living room is inadequate no matter where I put the chair. LOL I'll have to take a pic sometime to give you an idea. So, as I previously stated, the stitching is coming along slowly. Hope all is right in your world!!!  

I have gotten through almost 2 chapters in the Bible Study on Bathsheba and am finding myself in her the deeper I get into this novella. Her deep and long-lasting love for David resonates. At this point, having read about three grace-filled women from the Bible, I can truly come to the conclusion that I am blessed. I am a mixture of these women for sure. I'll touch on that more at a later time. I have loved deeply and still love deeply. There is only one man for me and only God Himself knows who that man is for certain. The man that I truly love, deeply love, is the man I want to spend my life with. I only hope that my desires mesh with God's plans. Sometimes I see things coming together. Other times I have to remind myself that God IS in control. I cannot have control over my life anymore. I have to let HIM lead me. Then David sent messengers, and took her; and she came to him, and  he lay with her, for she was  cleansed from her impurity; and she returned to her house. ...

Raymond taunting a Tiger Sa-wiiing batter! 10th inning...bases loaded... ...and the Rays win!!!!!!!!!

I recently went to Denver, CO for a class that is required for my job. Here are some pics from that trip: Florida Coastline along panhandle Mississippi River You can see a hint of the snow capped Rockies mid-picture Jet heading west as we were heading east Right wing of jet Windmill power in west Kansas or east Colorado Rocky Mountains as seen from Northfield Mall

We are starting Bathsheba in Bible study this week. I don't have much to say about her yet, but I am sure I will once I complete the reading. I spent last week in Denver for work. I will have to go back a couple more times. Different classes that are required through National Veterans Training Institute of UC -Denver. I enjoyed my time there and got to meet some nice/interesting people. Here are some pics I took on my trip: Florida Panhandle Gulf Coast Might Mississippi Windmill energy in either W Kansas or E Colorado Beautiful smelling trees outside DoubleTree Hotel in Denver The Rockies as viewed from Northfield Mall Jet heading west while mine headed east Wing shot Taking off into the sunset in Nashville Sunset over Nashville Coming into Tampa area I didn't really get to site see too much while in Denver this time. I decided I will rent a car on the next trip when I am there so that I can head for the mountains!

Welcome to my newest followers!!! Well, I made it back from Denver in barely one piece. Long story...my connection in Nashville was over 3 hours delayed so I didn't walk through my door until 2am Saturday. Went to the Tigers v. Rays game Saturday night and got home to a mess in my room. I left a cup (32 oz) of tea on my night table and my laptop turned upside down on my trash canister. Needless to say the cats wanted tea and managed to dump half of it on my laptop. So, Sunday after church I went to Walmart and purchased a new laptop. I now have an Acer Chromebook. All-in-all I like it, with the exception of the keypad. Takes some getting used to... I did take my Praying Hands wip with me to Denver. However I didn't get anything done on it while there. Here is where I left things just before leaving: I have tomorrow off for the July 4th holiday and plan to do a little stitching on it then. Maybe put some in tonight as well. ~~~Until Next Time~~~